Why?
Why is
facebook so... fake?
Sure,
facebook is great if life is going well. You just got engaged? You will be congratulated by the kid that set next to you in High School Chem lab. Promotion at work? Cheers to you from the guy that dated that girl that you kind of knew in college. But when the going is rough you had better not even think to mention it on
fbook. The slightest sign of a bad day, depression, or broken heart and you are sure to receive a million posts checking in to make sure you are okay. Now remember the people checking in are all probably people you haven't actually spoken to or seen in at least 5-10 years. But still, they really care. And if this if what cheers you up, then just go right along posting on your wall about your bad hair day.
But what I would really like is a
Lifebook. A place I could post a comment about a new hideously depressing song lyric I can't get out of my head ("you don't have to drag me down, i descend.") or some really morbid thought of the day. And instead of getting a cheery response to let me know they LUV me or I should try to
LOL today, maybe people could write back with their own favorite depression song.
The thing is, your real friends know you. I am pretty sure if Em or MA* saw a status like "Lindsey is watching "A Walk to Remember" with a bottle of red and a box of razor blades" they would know that I was not seriously depressed, just seriously in need of a night wallowing in a little sadness. But you can't put that kind of stuff on
fbook. The next thing I know my aunts, cousins, and godmother (how did this happen, why are my family members on
fbook?) would all be calling a
hotline and signing me up for counseling.
So I guess the story is, on
Facebook I put my best self forward. Lindsey is shopping/boot-stomping/loving life. And on my blog, I am putting my whole self forward.
Lindsey is shopping (new
sephora purchase she can't afford/boot-stomping (
keith urban
fri and
shawn colvin sat (sunny came home
))/loving life(but missing miss sugar bean something awful).